Confessions of a Rock-Mom: “The American Dream”

July 3, 2019

When I found out I was pregnant for the last time, I honestly had mixed emotions. I was excited on one hand to finally complete our little family, but was honestly scared to start over. Who wouldn’t be scared senseless after 7 years. I thought this time around would throw off my entire schedule. Let’s be honest, a moms schedule is always blown out the water. Sleeping, is never the same. I mean you never really ever sleep the same once you enter into motherhood. By habit I still get up in the middle of the night to make sure my oldest is still breathing. Don’t ask me why I do, but I’m just that mom.

After I finally got my self in check and we found out that we were having a boy, my inner being went on an emotional rollercoaster. I couldn’t believe we were having yet another boy. I had only mentally prepared for a girl, girl names, girl activities, girl bonding time. I wanted a girl, period. I was in a state of shock for a week. I wanted my “perfect” family and another boy was throwing everything off. It’s amazing how we think what we want isn’t want we actually need in life. Who ever said a boy and girl would be the “American Dream.” What is the “American Dream?” I realized what I thought was unrealistic and had to let be, just be. 

When I finally let go and took down all the barriers, I knew all would be well. Meeting Carter for the first time made all fears melt away. He wasn’t my “American Dream,” but so much more. He was what I was waiting for all my life. Who knew it would be take being scared, having self doubt and wanting a girl, would make me whole. Life couldn’t be sweeter. Thank God I get to wake up and look at this handsome face every morning.

Please reload

Featured Posts


June 7, 2018

Please reload

Recent Posts
Please reload

Please reload

Search By Tags
Please reload

Follow Us
  • Facebook Basic Square
  • Twitter Basic Square
  • Google+ Basic Square
  • Instagram

©2018 by Confessions of a Rock-Mom. Proudly created with